When it all falls apart.

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Don't remember when was the last time I felt so bad, so much so that I feel like crying. I think it was after FP exam.

There were times when I wonder if I'll cry as badly as the times I laugh so hardly. Like the neutralisation point.. Stupid right?

I really feel like crying right now..

Even as I'm typing this post out now.

I'm tired. Too many commitments? I don't know, but I don't think so. Because I seem to get use to it already.

Just came back from the post trip dinner.

I got to know my results for the project.

I got a C. Just because I skipped the 4% journaling component? Then what about all the hard work trying to gather information and preparing for the presentation?

Bottom line: I really didn't expect myself to score so badly despite the fact of skipping the 4% part.

But I've told myself before that projects don't play an important part and that exams and CTs are what that matters most.

But so what? I've totally lost the momentum, the motivation to study hard and do my very best for my studies.

Be it project, tutorials or tests.

And always, at the end of the day, I regret. But it is all too late..

And what's next, my common tests are lined up on the week when I'm going to leave for Taiwan with my family and cousins. Much anticipated, but now??

How am I supposed to settle this?

Mrs Choo just answered: "Oh, then you're gonna get zero for the paper."

Then what else is there left to do?

I can't possibly withdraw from the trip or ask for a postpone since it has already been confirmed.

Just yesterday, I told myself to remain positive and try to solve the problem but now, it seems like all hopes are gone and that I've lost my confidence in trying to resolve matters.

What's wrong with me?

Why am I so result-driven when I know I am not a person who prioritise my studies above all? Losing myself in this society of competitiveness and forcing myself so hard just to get good results and hopefully progress on to my next path in life.

Are qualifications all that matters in life? If so, that really sucks..

I&E proposal, bcomm long report, projects after projects. E-learning assignments coming up soon.

Telephone etiquette assessment next week.

I am not being an emo girl here or any thing of that sort, just feel like expressing how I feel.

However, I know that through these difficulties, God has his plans and is making me a stronger person day by day.

Through it all, I know you'll be there for me.

Thanks Keith for being ever so nice to me all the time. ^^

Brown hair, Fat cheeks?

Cute cupcakes rightttt?? ^^

A few reasons to be happy today. =)

Met up with Darling finally! After 1 month or so? I will never get sick or tired of long chatting sessions with her.

Because every time we meet, we basically have a lot to update each other about.

And every time we meet, she never fail to surprise me with new things that happen in her life! HAHA!

So I had Nutella flavoured ice cream while she had 3 scoops of Pear Sake, Soursop and Teh Tarik each.

I was quite full actually because of my lunch at 1 so I decided to take just 1 scoop without my usual waffle. =(

Gelare half-priced ice-cream waffles on Tuesday!! It has been soooo very long since I last had that!

And I'm craving for donuts tooooo! Half a dozen? Who wants to share with me? 

OKKKKKKKK, anyway I have been spending large amounts of $$ these few days.

Contacts, nails, bus pass.

Oh and I decided to buy bus pass after all. Because being a resident in Bukit Timah area, bus is almost the only mode of transportation around. And I realise I can use up to $10 per week without concession. =S

Despite the fact that I can walk to and from school back home. 

And I want to make it a point that, whatever that is typed out in my blog, whether you as a reader like it or not, it is written from my point of view and I really have no intention of offending you in any way.

As stated, it is just another way of expression. A place for me to rant, and to spell out my positive as well as negative feelings.

Just want to make a disclaimer because I know that there are quite a few people reading my blog.

Not trying to be thick-skin or anything of such. Just wish to make things clear and prevent any misunderstandings from arising.

I find no point to lock up my blog either. And I really would like to minimise the restrictions when writing in this space by minimising the censorship as well as conservatism while posting.

Please understand this and I thank you very much for reading this whole chunk of text.

SUPER TIREDDD! 

Sleeping soon!

YAWNSSSS!

School days make me tired. And I've got work tomorrow evening. 

Get started on your tutorials Evelyn. No time to waste. Know your aim, go for it.

Looks stupid and a wee bit disgusting cause of the curly wurlies but cute!!

No more Monday blues~~

Nice bangles and cute furry keychain. I like.

Treasury tutorial is da best. (Y)

Why am I procrastinating again... 

Story telling this Sunday but I am not making good use of my free time! TSK!

I love the weather tonight.

I'm gonna sleep earlier tonight.

1 whole week packed with activities.

Charmaine can never fail to make me laugh out loud.